LooseLacesPoetry

His love was like a raging tide. A caressing water washing over dry sand known as my soul. A personal island created just for him. I drowned before I reached the surface.

Run away with me, Far away inside a desolated island that only our hearts can make Far away from society and their cruel taunts, and cold gestures, Run so far away, That not even time can stop us For all I need is your hand, and your safety Your control, and your comfort, For your comfort is what keeps me alive, keeps me going when I have nothing Nothing to my name but your body and my reason to keep loving you So, run away with me, And together we can be free.

Love, a word with a million meanings. A patient yet inexcusable word that can destroy a soul in a less than a second. Feelings that were once pure and inhumane finding its way to haunt a vessel until nothing is left, Empty, like a forgotten fortress waiting for its master to return. Love, a word that is maimed and skinned until it’s bare and naked. A word that if placed in the hands of a child would be carefully taken care of until the world snatches it back. No tears, no forgiveness, chained inside the chambers of the heart until it’s broken apart and wasted. Love, What an unforgiving word.

A simple notion, gentle gaze, Harboring a desire that only we can share. Our bodies melting, deriving from an organ that was once our hearts. I rest. In a peace so simple, so fabricated, I can tell it’s a lie. You have always been my truth. As I run away from my demons, I run away from you. I am not the person you believe that I am, I am no longer me. So, I ask that you save me, save me and be the light that’s needed. I am dying.

Once I had met you, you became what is now known as my sanctuary. My empty pride, and unbelievable craving. You became my heart, the very organ in which I need to live. When you speak, it pumps, I breathe. You became my sun, my light, and the reason I wake up. You became the eyes I need to see. As time passed, I realized you became one with me, As I became one with you. A heart that beats only for it’s maker. You are my maker, my creator, the very thing that I need to survive, For surely, if you were to die my love, We would die together.

I hold your love in my hands Feeling myself gently placing it inside the core of my very soul Letting it fill my nerves and caress my entire existence I hold your love in my soul Having it become the person in which I know will make me better To soothe my demons and save my inner light Because your love is my light A red crimson, shining as bright as the sun, wash over me like a raging tide Enveloping me in a sensation that numbs everything inside of me A love so warm, so fragile, my soul can only be its keeper So, I will hold your love in my hands I will hold your love in my soul I will protect your love

Day in and day out. Living in a nocturnal existence I stare at the clock waiting I wait for time to stop so I can go back and do it all over again Breathing in a regret that eats at the very essence of my soul Like a hungry demon devouring every inch of my sanity I sit here. Sitting in a wooden chair isolated by my own judgement Letting time tick by With each passing second waiting for it to rest Until eventually I will realize it won’t Time will still resume as I sit here in regret No energy to move, eyes peeled on the hands of time With a body paralyzed by sound Tick. Tock. Feeling the discomfort of my demons eating away at me